[A wry smile tugs at Rinneās lips. On some days, he canāt stand Takasugiās greed, but his remorse is unbearable. No one should have to apologize for wanting some affection. It's true, Takasugi did hurt him. Rinne will acknowledge that. But Takasugi begging for him and apologizing for it is much more than anything his fans or family would have done, so all he has to say is,]
It's okay. You just want someone to treat you gently, right?
[He remembers how Takasugi asked for it. He was so bold about it, it was easy to forget what he had actually said. But Rinne gets it. His laughter is fond.]
I can't always be gentle. Knowing me's a pain in the ass, too. But that's why you love me, doncha?
[Rinne bites his lip, regretting this already, but his smile still reaches his eyes. This is one of the few times he knows he isn't wrong. The alcohol is loosening him up, and he can't help himselfā¦]
Your clansmen shouldn't have been so hard on you in the first place. Pinning all their hopes on one person and treating him like that... Just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
[In fact, between his drunken confessions, he rubs his eyes with the heel of his palm and hopes Takasugi doesn't notice. Takasugi's pain, his own powerlessnessāall of it makes him so angry. Rinne was only able to put up with the same because his brother was there. But what good will it do, drowning in his sorrows and wishing things were different? Rinne should tell Takasugi how he feels. No, he should show him. Takasugi might die if he doesn't show him. So Rinne fights the weight in his limbs, the fog in his head, and collapses against Takasugi, chest to chest as warm, unintelligible words slur into the column of his neck.]
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It's okay. You just want someone to treat you gently, right?
[He remembers how Takasugi asked for it. He was so bold about it, it was easy to forget what he had actually said. But Rinne gets it. His laughter is fond.]
I can't always be gentle. Knowing me's a pain in the ass, too. But that's why you love me, doncha?
[Rinne bites his lip, regretting this already, but his smile still reaches his eyes. This is one of the few times he knows he isn't wrong. The alcohol is loosening him up, and he can't help himselfā¦]
Your clansmen shouldn't have been so hard on you in the first place. Pinning all their hopes on one person and treating him like that... Just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
[In fact, between his drunken confessions, he rubs his eyes with the heel of his palm and hopes Takasugi doesn't notice. Takasugi's pain, his own powerlessnessāall of it makes him so angry. Rinne was only able to put up with the same because his brother was there. But what good will it do, drowning in his sorrows and wishing things were different? Rinne should tell Takasugi how he feels. No, he should show him. Takasugi might die if he doesn't show him. So Rinne fights the weight in his limbs, the fog in his head, and collapses against Takasugi, chest to chest as warm, unintelligible words slur into the column of his neck.]