The suggestion shocks Rinne into sobriety. His heart is so loud that he can feel the beats against Takasugi’s chest. Takasugi wants to... with him? Would the person he wants to become ask his subordinate for something like that?
He breaks into a cold sweat and squeezes his eyes shut. No, no. Takasugi isn't the sort of person who would take advantage of him. Rinne knows what he did. Rinne is in the wrong. But even if Rinne did entertain the thought of feeling more than skin and teeth, most thoughts should remain just that. Takasugi doesn't need to know all of Rinne's desires. He doesn't need someone who thinks about his claws, his chest, his mouth as they color him in their sick fantasies, blood and juice trickling down his chin and their fingers.
But tonight isn't about Rinne.
Quietly, he asks,]
Is that what you want to do?
[Because if it is—and Rinne thinks it is—then never mind this wretched, shameless heat that burns whenever he's near. For the hero who has never denied him, Rinne would do anything. Anything to keep the air in his lungs.]
I haven't done it with Niki, [he admits in a whisper.
Rinne doesn't like being denied, but he wants to give people a choice and tell them the consequences. Takasugi will have to teach him. Isn't that a bother? If he was joking, he should say so.]
the truth is he can't. he can't actually take advantage of him. and especially not when he's whispering what takasugi has started to suspect. there's a certain innocence to rinne that he enjoys, and he envisions it as something beautiful beneath him, sweating under the thousand-count sheets. a desire that he knows very intimately now, that blossomed properly tonight.
but he can't. not to the only person he would remake this boring world for. )
—you should do it with him. Is that what "I" want to do? What do you want, Amagi-kun? Just to fulfill my desires and not your own?
( here, he can break away from their hug. hold rinne out in front of him by the shoulders, the strength of a carnivora coming in handy. )
Because as serious as I am, for you... you've already made a mark on me. With your music, and your kind words. You don't need to go this far. This new world, and all the power you wish to grab should come from your own choices, and not mine. Don't settle for a dull outcome, now.
( and if it is what he wants, then. he'll do what he's always done—try to live interestingly, and take amagi rinne with him. )
[ Relief washes over Rinne as it takes all his fears along with it. Delight blooms in a bright color across his fair face. He lets go of a breath he didn't know he was holding, and when he laughs, the sound is nothing like that forced, foxlike laughter he tends to make. ]
Fuck, that's the most interesting thing you've said tonight. No wonder the books said you were trouble!
[ Will Takasugi ever stop being trouble? Rinne can't even hear that thought in his mind when his heart is doing another victory lap in his chest. Once again, betting on Takasugi was the right choice. He should know this by now, but every moment feels like the first, and Rinne... He's never felt more alive.
That's when it really clicks: This is the kind of person Rinne likes. This is who Rinne wants to be. Someone bold and unpredictable, generous and kind... ]
[ Someone who loves regardless of what might come next. ]
I just want to repay you.
I know we ain't reached our goals yet, and I know this is just the beginning. But you've made a mark on me, too. Obviously. I spent the past four years trying to prove everyone wrong, but a real nice guy like you believed in me just like that. [ He laughs a little because, Takasugi? Nice? Haha.
...
Takasugi really is, though. ]
Every day with you, I feel like I'm learning something new.
Mm, but mentor ain't the right word for it. Whenever I'm with you, I feel like I'm talking to...
Kyaha! [ Rinne pushes Takasugi back. He doesn't try to act hateful this time, but he needs the distance. ] Well, forget it.
[ What he thinks of Takasugi is far too embarrassing to say. ]
How 'bout this, Prez? Since being a sugar daddy gets you off so much, for every live performance we pull off without a hitch, how about you give me somethin' nice?
( the relief on rinne's face is all that matters, their empty drinks forgotten.
their reason for being here in the first place, also forgotten, by takasugi at least—something about a celebration and treating rinne? the steady thump of his heartbeat says it was so much more.
"i love you, so i'll do anything for you".
he was made to love so much, this one, that it almost makes takasugi bite his lip. what can he leave behind in someone so alive? for now, this mutual consent can grow in the expanse between them. for now, takasugi knows he won't touch anyone else, and he'll keep quiet about it. )
But what I do, or what I teach you, won't be as family or a friend. It'll be exactly as I said I was. Your Takasugi Shinsaku. Those years where most couldn't give back to you are over.
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Let's see you stand first. And then, ... you can take me to my room. Okay?
( he says it sweetly, almost like a whisper. it shouldn't be hard to hear, what with the ears they had now. )
You understand what I'm getting at... don't you?
( an attempt to jolt rinne out of this situation. he can keep what's left of his calm long enough for that. )
no subject
The suggestion shocks Rinne into sobriety. His heart is so loud that he can feel the beats against Takasugi’s chest. Takasugi wants to... with him? Would the person he wants to become ask his subordinate for something like that?
He breaks into a cold sweat and squeezes his eyes shut. No, no. Takasugi isn't the sort of person who would take advantage of him. Rinne knows what he did. Rinne is in the wrong. But even if Rinne did entertain the thought of feeling more than skin and teeth, most thoughts should remain just that. Takasugi doesn't need to know all of Rinne's desires. He doesn't need someone who thinks about his claws, his chest, his mouth as they color him in their sick fantasies, blood and juice trickling down his chin and their fingers.
But tonight isn't about Rinne.
Quietly, he asks,]
Is that what you want to do?
[Because if it is—and Rinne thinks it is—then never mind this wretched, shameless heat that burns whenever he's near. For the hero who has never denied him, Rinne would do anything. Anything to keep the air in his lungs.]
I haven't done it with Niki, [he admits in a whisper.
Rinne doesn't like being denied, but he wants to give people a choice and tell them the consequences. Takasugi will have to teach him. Isn't that a bother? If he was joking, he should say so.]
no subject
( no.
the truth is he can't. he can't actually take advantage of him. and especially not when he's whispering what takasugi has started to suspect. there's a certain innocence to rinne that he enjoys, and he envisions it as something beautiful beneath him, sweating under the thousand-count sheets. a desire that he knows very intimately now, that blossomed properly tonight.
but he can't. not to the only person he would remake this boring world for. )
—you should do it with him. Is that what "I" want to do? What do you want, Amagi-kun? Just to fulfill my desires and not your own?
( here, he can break away from their hug. hold rinne out in front of him by the shoulders, the strength of a carnivora coming in handy. )
Because as serious as I am, for you... you've already made a mark on me. With your music, and your kind words. You don't need to go this far. This new world, and all the power you wish to grab should come from your own choices, and not mine. Don't settle for a dull outcome, now.
( and if it is what he wants, then. he'll do what he's always done—try to live interestingly, and take amagi rinne with him. )
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Fuck, that's the most interesting thing you've said tonight. No wonder the books said you were trouble!
[ Will Takasugi ever stop being trouble? Rinne can't even hear that thought in his mind when his heart is doing another victory lap in his chest. Once again, betting on Takasugi was the right choice. He should know this by now, but every moment feels like the first, and Rinne... He's never felt more alive.
That's when it really clicks: This is the kind of person Rinne likes. This is who Rinne wants to be. Someone bold and unpredictable, generous and kind... ]
2/3 i changed my mind
I just want to repay you.
I know we ain't reached our goals yet, and I know this is just the beginning. But you've made a mark on me, too. Obviously. I spent the past four years trying to prove everyone wrong, but a real nice guy like you believed in me just like that. [ He laughs a little because, Takasugi? Nice? Haha.
...
Takasugi really is, though. ]
Every day with you, I feel like I'm learning something new.
Mm, but mentor ain't the right word for it. Whenever I'm with you, I feel like I'm talking to...
3/3
[ What he thinks of Takasugi is far too embarrassing to say. ]
How 'bout this, Prez? Since being a sugar daddy gets you off so much, for every live performance we pull off without a hitch, how about you give me somethin' nice?
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( he won't even deny it, no matter how twisted the implications are out-loud.
after all, takasugi was twisted to begin with. and this way, maybe he can keep this overwhelming attraction at bay.
his tail, always ready to betray him, rocks gently against the dusty floor at the thought. )
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their reason for being here in the first place, also forgotten, by takasugi at least—something about a celebration and treating rinne? the steady thump of his heartbeat says it was so much more.
"i love you, so i'll do anything for you".
he was made to love so much, this one, that it almost makes takasugi bite his lip. what can he leave behind in someone so alive? for now, this mutual consent can grow in the expanse between them. for now, takasugi knows he won't touch anyone else, and he'll keep quiet about it. )
But what I do, or what I teach you, won't be as family or a friend. It'll be exactly as I said I was. Your Takasugi Shinsaku. Those years where most couldn't give back to you are over.